25 Eylül 2012 Salı

M Y; " F O R M  a L;   "  D e r i v a t i v e;   PERSONALity  ..

" & the W H i T E   t h e   r a p y BALL "
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A m I  ,a Formal  M A N.. Y e s ,I am..but i n a    ; "  d e r a v a t i v e " ;  WAY..A c t i n g  L i k e;  a s  if  ;  I  A M..because; I DO; not want to;  ;be a magnet; to atract; " F o  r m s " in the society;  (in the Public)  that will  M A K E;     ME; a  figure;    - o r  a  Picture -  ;-or a PAiNTing-; Hanging   a-round;  as i f  I was a Figure instead o f;  an ARTiST' s  ;  " A R T  WORK " ...in my country; these man; are s a i d;  to be;  M A D E;  by " A L  L AH " (As t h e ;   Artist) .. and they act l i k e;  a  P a i n t i n g;  -a moving and acting Painting -  ;4 the needs of ;    the ART;     i n the P u b l i c..  

I have a Musician F r i e n d..(MALE 40)  ..Although he is a Virtuoso; i n V i o l i n;playing  (he is the only Turk; accepted to the Paganini Competition;..)  ; h e ; simpley i s, sitting; i n C.S.O.  Orkestra; (the 1. Orchestra o f Turkey..); i n the back rows.(.married;to a cello player in orchestra;  and has a child.) (we both bought; vito mercedes; V a n s; 4 family V o c a t i o n s, together..there was a Europa tour; 36 days; 15 countries, with these V a n s..2 years ago..)).( because, some a r e  to; p l a y;    " the Painting- ROLE; or a picture o f a GREAT-M A N..  "   ;   - to the Concert Listeners.-..i n the ; ahead rows..)  ...H e plays Table Tennis;  ( begun as an amature; but now he owns some degree s in professional players compatitions..) (and w e met; w h e n; w e; were playing; table tennis; i n the Orcestra..and w e had a    t e a m; there ,   in the  T a b l e Tennis ;  L i g u e.. )
 I  have   t o ; s a y, H  E;  i s  A  WRiTER;     - L i k e I am-     his  STYLE; i n Table Tennis  i s;i n;         "  P E N  HOLDER; Style "  ; like some Chinese; play,, that  w a y..S  O;  I am  A   " P e n  Holder; "  (a real Pen Holder to write on a paper page; 
   - and I wrote my PAGES; while L i s t e n i n g; Symphonic M u s i c; rehearsals;  ON  M Y ; T A B L E T e n n i s RACKET; a s a TABLE; 4 WRiTiNG; the LETTERs o f the ALPHA B E T H -   
     b u  t   he  (my F r i e n d );    w r i t e s; o n  the ; GREEN  T A B L E.. with a  W h i t e ; b a l l; (a tennis ball )    but; it is like writing on; w a t e r.. if not ; teken   , a V i d e o..or writing to the M i n d of the other player..)
  W Eİ should play; 40 s e t s; of M a t c h ing;(Table Tennis M a t c h..)  t  o;  r e a c h; to the  
"   N i r v a n a;  STATE;"  " or we say; STATE; o f  a T i B E T i an; M O N K..-   
   t o  b e ABLE;  t o ; T aA L K;  then..     S  O;  it has,  b e en 15 years;  w e  begun, our ; TALKings..once a week, W E; have a street talking;
 (on Tunalı Hilmi St. i n ANKARA; 4 at least; 6 Hours; to ABSOLUTE; VOLUME; o r to the computer; HARD D i s k..!)   ;  with; Antico Toscano; C i g a r s;  ; E a t; Hamburgers; in Burger King; than; sit  Star Buks  ;  4 clear; i n g;  what w e had  spoken.. a s    ;   " a s  written T a l K s; to   o u r  ; associated M i n d s..)..(he has an  "  A B S O L U T E;  E  A  R  "   ;  o f  C O U R S E;(as any virtuoso DOES; )  ; and ; this " ABSOLUTE; V O L U M E  " ;  ; shall; l i s t e n;   to,U  S;          -b u t;       especiallly; BASED  O  N;    m y  W r i t i n g s..     -with a   r e a l  , P E N..  w r i t t e n  by  ME   ; to the; PAPER P A G E s; before-      ..H  e  is  the fastest READER;  t o  my ;" ONE P A G E; FORMATTED; SQUARE "       ;   H A N D; writings..(because; H e L i v e s;  i n the Country o f   T İ B E T; as a MONK; a l R E A D y..)    (and M y; W R i T i n g s; in ONE PAGE; -FORMAT-  a r e;  m e d i t a t i o n; sessions;  a  s;      i  f,  a  ;I  w a s;  M E;   ;  " a SQUARE;  a t e d; "    T i B E T;  M O N K...here; I can ; Play; to b e;  a MONK;  then I am a  "  relative ely-a FORMAL; PERSON  ";  h e r    e ;  a G A i N..)  
..."  talking t o; a   ABSOULUTE- VOLUME; T i B E T;   B O X "  ;    ; -instead o f; BEing  i n K aa B A;  with a Public o f crowded; M u slim s..; Talking; the words memorized from; the Holy Kuran BOOK..b u t; TALKiNG; expressions o n L i f e ..& turn them into; a r t ; eXpressions..- 

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ps. it is a basic thing   , to play T a b l e Tennis;   i n a  Classic M u s i c  ;Orchestra..T h e y;  r e a d;  BLACK; DOTs; (or black Balls; o f music notes..)  ; as they play; their instrument s;..T h e n; there i s     " a N e t "; on a TABLE; (a " PORTE";   -a  S T A V E-  );  U;    ; to put;      "   w h i t e ; ball s "     ;    ON;     - to  t h e  STAVE-;     ;that  t i m e.. this may b e a    " miror image "   o f U' r Musician- BODY;    " or to  the ; played composition ";   o f an other; p e r s o n..(Composer..) (also a reverse; to the Conductor..)   i  F;  U  h a v e ;  anything  eXcess;  t o   s a y; or  EXPRESS;  t h e n;   U  have to c l e a n  UP;  all  the expressions that w e r e ;  PUT-iNTO;  U, by the OTHERs..
S  O; this  " W H i T E; B A L L "  the r a p h y;  ; i s; a  B A S i C  WAY; to  -especially-;M u s i c i a n s..  ,if U want; to have U' r    O  W   N;  ; BODy; -& THOUGHTs; or Thinkings..
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I  am  an  "  A l t e r n a t i v e -ARTiST; f i G u r e;  ";  working O N; "4 art Deciplines"; b u t; not as an professional; ARTist..they are artists; & I am; p l a y i n g, as i f;I am;    a n ; ARTiST; i n  ;" relative;&reverse  M e d i u m "   ..t h e r e..in symhonic O r c e s t r a..  (can they teach; m e,  to be a proffessional artist; t h e r e..NO; I have many alternative escaping a r e a s; & m e d i u m s;  to  e x p a n d..b u t; ı prefer to act; a s;  an  accompany i n g; ARTist.. & m y MAiN; POST; i n that orchestra; w a s a  C e l l o; player; age 55 now; a Marx i s t; M A L E..with blue eyes; and blond h a i r..H  e  was being kikked off; because h e wasn' t  C a p i t a l i s t;  S O;  W  e; were; t o g a t h e r ; as w e   w e r e  ;  BROTHERs.. and they stoped; kicking; h i m; b e c a u s e;  I  w a s; a C a p i t a l i s t;  G L O V E;  to  h i s  Marxist; A X E..L i k e  a  SiU; i n d i a n ;  a x e..) it has been 32 years; s i n c e; I ve been ;  i  n  there,    3 full  days- a w e e k..I am not paid; b u t ; I  w a s; a  WORKER;  t h e r  e;  in the benefits;  o f; " MY  4A R T;s   ;  ON   l y.. That; i s  a  R E L A T i V E; ity; Theory;   W o r k; e d;  as  I   w a s, a JOB; o w n e r;  to  all; those; s e e k,  m e ; to have a; FORMAL;  J o b..(I had an ;employer; NO; B O D y; knew..)

I  am; " FORM a l "  ; in M a n y; F i e l d s;  but they ; A R E; all; reverse; relative; and  d e r i v a t i v e;    but F O R M  a  l; in a second L A Y E R;     ; in a second  saying..(this i s ; because;  " F O R M i n g;s  O F t h e  A R T;  s;"  ;  h a s  to  b e ;  F L O A T E D; i n  L i f e ;  -as my FORMAL; positionings  a r e ; floating -  ;  t  o;  L e t ;  F O R M s;  a r o u n d;  i n  PUBLiC;  c a n ;  i n s t a l l ;  into  my ART; D Oings;  freely;  and  a s T h e y  R E A L L y,  A  R  E..                  ..       R E A L;   i n the  " ABSOLUTE; VOLUME;-B O X e s;"  L i k e; Computers has; too..  o  r;  M i n e; -my M i n d-  has become to; b e; NE; o f  , t h e m..)     

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p.s.         m y  Table Tennis, STYLE; w a s; N a m e d ;  a s; " A z t e k ";  o r  " ; A P A C H e " ..i n the Symphony..

p.s.       T h e r is  an   a b s e n c e;  o f  ; the Composer,  (Mozart; o r Shuman; o r Brahms; ect.).. when rehearsal i n g;   , o n a  Composition.with the c o n d u c t o r..(every body feel different ; definations  ;  4 the composers; character..)  I  a m, a very  d e e p;  & a meditational; L i s t e n e r;  S O..I  b e come that  composer ' s  as a l i v e; character;(taht i s I Play; h i m..to whom has a different  " picture- oppinion  "; o n the Composers; behaveours;..)  ;    ; S O;  I  am  the;   "   RELATive-ly; m a d i t a ted; Compositor CHARAC T E R "  (I should b e ; acting  ;  S O; i f  Questioned; during the Lunch; or; drinking  t e a; C a f e.. ) preferably;can BEHAVE ;  a s ;   the M A D;  P E R S ON; i n SYMPHONy..;  w h o;  "  t h i n K s ";  H e is; that; composer..

___________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________  I had a demand; from ;      ; m y, V i t u o s o; friend;  15 years  e g o;  ; that; he should play that    "   v i o l i n;  in  " f l u "  style.". (NO; notes; happen; i n that thecnic..j u s  t  the  sound..like a mosquito; sound in the  e a r;  o r; the sound o f, any; " t h i n g "..).. t h e n; i m p r o v i s a t i o n; should take place..(HAND; s h o u l d  act; faster than  T h e; RATiO; & M i n d..understanding should c o m e; l a t e r ;    t h e n; the SOUND; w a s;  s t r u c t u r e d;  i n  the  air;  & reached; a t; t h e  E A R;  t h e n;  .(.totally; r e v e r s e;  a    w a y; then; playing music;  b y;    looking a t; the    TEXT; o f, t h e; COMPOSiTON..)

....and  I begun to teach h i m;  a l l;  ART H i s t o r y;  " i s m s "  ..  b  u  t;  ; mainly; " the    " A B S T R A C T;  i m pressionism  "   ; &the  ABCTRACT; eXpressionism..  S  O;  h e      ;M  A  D  E;   h  i  s;  RECORDs;  ;  ...his S O U L;  w a s; f r e e ;  i n  these; improvisions; a t  O N C E.. (because NO  NOTE; o f the architectural m u s i c  has bound; h i m..) W O R K s..  then  w e together; should listen to t h e m;  and  I  W o u l d;  create;  N A M E S;    ; to  T h o s e;   p i e c e s..o f  "  SOUND; ART; "  M e d i t a t i o n   s   "..(not;Music; M A D E; o f  NOTES;   -" B r i c k s "-    i f  there a r e ;  NOTEs; o f M u s i c;    ; t h e n ; M u s i c i a n s; w e r e ;  ARCH i t e c t h s;      - as; M U S i C;  w a s;   a  C i t y; full o f  ARHiTECTURAL;  B U i L D i n g s-..)

H e  ;T o L D;  m e,  a  story..W h e n  H e was ; RECORDing; with a microphone; late i n the ; N i g h t..-i n the Darkness; o f  the Night-     ; he was; dancing;    to t h e;  SATAN;  -he guesses-    ; then; s u d d e n l y;  there o c c u r e d;  a    " totally; different;  SOUND   "    ;i  n  T h e   ROOM; that came ;  i n t o;   his  ABSOLUTE; E A R.    (.He says; I know;  "  M E "; & M y   H  a n d..      SO; I did not m a k e;   ; this  SOUND.).   S  O;  w h a t  was;  i     t..   A  G O B L i n;  a      c i  n.. perhaps..  (music is made o f NOTES; ;strong SOUND; to clean; S O U N D;  and keep;   "  music art' s ";  SOUND;  P U R E; ;as if sound;  w a s;  DOings;  -structure elements-   i n the H e a v e n; ..   b  u t ;  w h e n;  U;  G O;  U N D E R  these;  -with f l u; soumds-    NOTES; o f  M us i c;  UNDER A T O M i C;  L A V E L;  O P E N s..

T h e n  he said, i n M u s i c  -when  with Sound-;     U; can  ; n o t; STOP;  - HOLD; FREEZE-; these; G o b l i n s; and  C i n s; & e.c.t.i n the SOUND; o f  the; music   ...  they are all L i v e..with tha  s o u n d..     b u t; i n     ;  U ' r  P a i n t i n g s;    he says;  t h e y  are; K e p t;  -can BE  H O L D-  ; they can   " B E;  STOP E D; "  ; with  t h e  Speed  o f;  t h e  L i g h t;  (that is colors surrounding these Atom-under; b e ings..a n d; ; ..acting i n the sound  O N L y  can; give   t h e m;    " b e  More <; L i v e;  & e x p a n d  o f;  existance.. "
SO; I   D O;    ; have    m y OWN; M u s i c  ; -or sound  or M e d i u m; to those;give l i v e;   to these creatures;-  ; t h e n;  I  capture them; -freeze them-   ; i  n  the  L i g h t;  &  F  i  x   them;  i n;   t h e  P a i n t i n g;       ...........  o r ;  i n   the  C  o  m  p  u t  e  r;     -where; Absolute V o l u m e; of computer give s  M E;  opportunity    ; t o  D  O; & MAKE;  that..b e ings    "  B E;  F R E E Z e d.."

H  e  Told  M E;  that; in the;  Computer D e s i g n e d ; P i c t u r e ;      -that i s; on the wall o f his Saloon;  (in his H o m e );  that I  M A D E;  -      ..
.... these  creatures;i  n  that P i c t u r e;   -or painting -     w e r e ;  READy; 2  ;   J u m p;  OUT;   i n t o; t h e  SALOON;      i f  a   UFO;  should  come to his  window;  -or Balcony-  and Call  t h e m   O U T;  to that;    ;  R E A L    V O L U M E;  of " UFO "  ;space ship.
T H E S E;   Creatures; H A S  B E E N  ;   H O L D;  O n l y;  b y ; t h e  m e a n s;  -& medium- o f  L i g h t; -that is  colors-  ;     and  t h e y  are ;  t h a t,      L i v e  &  REAL  ..
.............because they came  f r o m;  t h e  SOUND; LAND  first;
 t h e n  has b e e n;  ARRESTED;  i n  the L i g h t;  a r e a;  with   ;  
" the     speed o f ;    L i g h t;  WALL..  " 
..& that w a s; the Strenght; o f  the;  PAiNT i n G..

p.s...by the  w a y; H e has given, the price    -40 000; Dolars-;   ;4 that; p a i n t i n g..although i t w a s; , a computer; Print..




.. d e t a i l;  from the Painting; o n the wall o f the Saloon..

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..S  O; ı come to a conclussion;  t  h  a  t;   " my derivatively; F o r m a l; L i f e; "    i s; all dedicated; t o;  a r t ;    to  H a p p e n  decent l y..  and O C C U R;  i n  it's  F r e e ; STYLE..with the R E A L ity ; o f  ; IT' s  ;  O   W   N..
.....a n d; I  wonder;  i f ,      there i s  a Painter; L a y e d;  DAWN;  i n a Symphonic Orchesrtra; 4   ; 30 years; -although; he w a s, educated; as a Chemical; engineer; -  ;..SO; the M e d i u m;  of  S O U N D;  could  b e;  E v a l u a t e d;  into the;  N a t u r e;  o f;  the L i g h t -&colors- u n touched;   i  n   A R T;      ;  I;  g u e s s..

...p.s. I w a s; going to the Orcestra; 4  ;  4  deciplines  t o ; HAPPEN;..
 1- SPORT;     ;playing Table Tennis,  to empty; Black & heavy mass; i n the M u s i c  NOTES;  i n t o; w h i t e ; BALLs..
2- W r i t i n g; my Writings; and  c u r v i n g  -bending; the letters o f the Alphabeth; with the sounds o f Orchestral Classic  m u s i c; w h e n  drawing; L e t t e r s..or the sound i n ME; expressed; b y  letters..     o n  M y  Table tennis RACKET..  a s  a writing T a b l e; on M y; knee. and my L e g..
3-  PLAY i n g;  t h e;"   MADMAN; across t h e W a t e r;"  this i s "; M E  M A D E; Composers; "
4-  I couldn' t  remember;  n o w..


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